Paper Ghost: Musings of a Restless Girl

I keep reading that one way to "up your happiness" is to write about what we are grateful for. So here goes: I am grateful that I have a job working with animals, even if I don't particularly enjoy the store I work in anymore. I am grateful that my boyfriend puts up with my moody shit. I am grateful to know and have friends, though few and far between, that will also put up with my moody shit. I am grateful to have the will power and motivation that has kept me going strong at the gym. I am grateful to have a brain that lets me be aware of the things that are wrong in the world, even if that makes me sad, a lot of, no most of the time, without it, I could not begin to attempt to fix these things.

Ugh. Everything is stressing me the fuck out. I had a great three days off and then of course the second I go back to work, more shit show. I'm so tired of the drama. It makes me so sad because that store used to be my second home, we were like a family. The team dynamic now is totally fucked and it's just..ugh. I can't take it. I took my graduation assessment today so I'm done with brcc. I'm just waiting for my stats grade to be posted on my transcript and then I'll have the official, final one sent to ODU. Wooooo. We're supposed to be going to NC a week from today but I'm so stressed about money that I think it would be better for us to not go, I really don't think we can afford it. But, I need it for my mental state, so I'm just trying to focus on that. beach, yes. vacation, yes. positivepositivepositive. Here is a photo of my face a few days ago.

So, I'm starting this blog over because google wanted to link all of my accounts and I didn't want my school stuff linked to my blog! Soooo I had to make a new e-mail address for non-school things, and blogger. Wee, here we go. :) Yesterday, I had an interview at Barnes and Noble, which I think went well. Went to Charlottesville with my seester Jade, and I ate this delicious basil, tomato, and mozzarella salad with blackened chicken and balsamic vinegar (it was seriously the tits) and had some burrs (beers) with some people I hold dear. I had not seen them in probably two years and it was such a nice time.  We went to see The Breakfast Club at the theater which was also fantastic, one of my favorite movies of all time. And I tried gelato for the first time! It was scrum-diddly-umptious. My three days off went by far too quickly and unfortunately, I must go back today. I was anticipating thunderstorms the three days I was off as weather.com forecasted them, and I was e...