Paper Ghost: Musings of a Restless Girl

My dad called last night and I could tell right away that he had been drinking. as far as I know, this is the first time he has drank since his near-death health scare in September. It took everything I had to not break down and cry on the phone. that came later, as I hid in the bathroom and my tears blended with bathwater. My whole life, all I've wanted is for my father to stop drinking.  But, he's an alcoholic, and as with most alcoholics, he is in denial. I should have known it was too good to last. Now I want to tell him about our engagement even less.

WE'RE ENGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGED. So, I also have some goals. This month: I am going to cut out fried foods and sugary treats (except for our engagement dinner...I'ma eat what I want!) Go to the gym three times a week minimum (class days!) Eat some sort of vegetable or fruit at every meal. Save moneyyyy.

I finally got glasses! Also, I'm going to propose to Alex. I cannot wait. :)

I suppose it's the time of year to reflect on the year that has ended. My goal at the beginning of 2015 was to put up with less bullshit. I did it. I quit PetSmart, I told my mom that her flaky style of mothering and giving little fucks about her children was not acceptable in my life. I told Alex we need to be financially stable or it's done. and, This year, I fell in love again with the boy I plan to spend my life with, I went kayaking for the first time, I maintained a 4.0 GPA at ODU while working full time, I moved to Norfolk, dealt with an insane neighbor, moved into another apartment in the same complex, discovered new, delicious foods, small businesses, I discovered I like (some) sushi, I went to my first hockey game, I grieved for lost animals, I have slowly learned my way around Hampton Roads (sort of) My dad nearly bled to death, and as a result, stopped smoking and drinking, I learned people can truly change.  rest in peace, Wafflebear. W...