Paper Ghost: Musings of a Restless Girl

I seem to turn to this thing whenever I'm feeling restless, which, let's be honest, is most of the time these days. I'm ready to get out of Norfolk. I'm so exhausted from school, I've been going for so, so long. like...ten years y'all, and that isn't counting public school. I want to take a semester off but I can't do that with the way the m.a. program is set up and the way in which classes are offered.  I'd have to take the whole year.  And I only have that year left, so..probably not the best thing to do. I'm just tired. I also had the realization last night (while lying in bed, trying to sleep, because we all know that's when anxiety likes to attack right? ha) that once I AM done next spring, that means no more financial aid to help me pay bills and rent, and that means...I have to find a job that will pay them.  I also will have to start paying off my student loans.  The amount of those is an unholy one, and it makes me sick to th...

So I'm getting ready to start a new job at Lush, part-time (anywhere from 5-19 hours which is perfect for grad school).  I'm excited but also anxious (when am I not?).  Since I started grad school and became a t.a., I feel like I've gone deeper into my shell and it's become even harder for me to talk to people and make friends.  My social anxiety is at a high.  At Lush, I'm basically going to be required to be all up in everyone's faces and putting product on them, so, I'm hoping this will help my confidence and allow me to get back to the person I used to be as far as at least thinking I was okay at talking.  And, I'm hoping it will help me make more female friends because there will be more possibility for us to have similar interests and beliefs, etc. I finally bought a class pass for the House of Muay Thai.  I cannot put into words how addicting that shit is.  It's so hard when you're not used to that level of fitness but it's also a lo...