Paper Ghost: Musings of a Restless Girl

Today we went to Hatcher Pass!   I'll let the photos speak for themselves.  Please do not steal these images, as they are my own.  Thanks.

So marijuana is legal in Alaska  and there are a lot of drive through coffee trucks (like, not trucks that move, but trucks that have drive thrus...it's wold) CBD is legal everywhere...but anyway, there's this coffee truck near Ashton's house that has cbd infused coffee and holy god you guys an iced Mexican Mocha with cbd oil in it is my new FAVE.  It's so smooth and delicious, like, shit, man. So good. If you're ever in the Wasilla area, I highly suggest Matanuska Thundercup.

When I was little, I would explore all the nooks and crannies in the spare bedroom at my grandma's house in Winchester.  The chest of drawers was full of treasures--rose-scented lotions, candles, shiny makeup compacts, old business cards, sachets of potpourri, all fascinating to a little girl.  There was one trinket in particular that caught my eye and I begged my grandma to let me keep it: an old skeleton key. My grandma's house wasn't old enough to have locks that would need such a key and I assume it likely came from the house my dad grew up in, making the key that much more mysterious.  I wore the key around my neck on a chain for years, throughout high school.  When my grandma passed away in the summer of 2008, the necklace became a talisman.  I used it to carry her love and light with me and I rarely took it off.  One night, I came home from spending time with friends and the chain broke, the necklace finding its way to the floor.  I h...

I've realized that the reason I never write anymore is because I became uncomfortable with talking about my emotions. In my last relationship, I was never allowed to share them without Austin distancing himself from me.  It contributed to my fear of being even remotely vulnerable. Which, is fine, but it breaks my heart to realize that this is why I don't write anymore. it feels like a talent was stolen from me. A lot of things were stolen from me in that relationship. But it's in the past and now that I've finally realized why I can't seem to write (aside from academic shit), I can begin to fix it. I've been telling myself that if I want more from my relationship, I have to be willing to give more myself.  Because, let's be honest.  I hate feelings.  I hate sharing my feelings. But I have to remember that if I allow myself to feel them and show them, I'll accomplish what it is I want.  You give more, you get more.  If only it were so simple. ...

Today we went to a wildlife refuge nearby in Knik.  Alex bought me a Nikon D3200 years ago so I brought it along with me to play with.  Currently, I'm mostly using the auto settings because it's been so long since I've taken photography classes or had time to mess with a camera, I don't remember what does what! Here are some photos I shot and edited today.  The mountains here are to die for, in case you weren't aware. 

So I lost my other blog that I tried to start as part of my New Years resolution, lawl. Can't remember which email I started with and none of my logins are taking me to that blog. I can't even remember the name or url. Whoops. Oh well. So, I'm visiting my best friend in Alaska as an early graduation present to myself and it is as amazing as last time. Her pigs are adorbs. It's still a little chilly (like 50's) and brown but it's getting greener everyday! I'll have to post some pictures when I get a chance.