I know I'm so bad at keeping up with this thing. I don't know if it's because these days, when it comes to keeping a blog, I feel like I'm talking to someone else and that I have to write as if I am, even if I'm not, even if I don't. it's very frustrating and I can't seem to get passed that feeling and just write. maybe I just don't feel things the way I used to. I don't mean to sound melancholy or depressing, but maybe I don't feel that fiery passion behind everything anymore, love or hate. I don't know. I don't think that's it. I know my last relationship messed me up and I wonder if it doesn't still have an impact on my ability to express emotions in writing or otherwise. it's not something I dwell on because that relationship means absolutely nothing to me and I don't think about it. But something has been different ever since. I often do wonder if I'm somehow desensitized to everything. If it's...