Paper Ghost: Musings of a Restless Girl

I need to learn how to not feel guilty about not being actively productive. I have free time now, and it's a strange feeling.

1.  This one is easy--exercise!  I love the fresh feeling of a good workout.  I know that might sound weird because good workouts tend to be a little sweaty and maybe a little gross, but it makes me feel so fresh and really, REfreshed.  I never regret a workout.  And it does so much for my mental health. 2. Create.  I should be more specific with this because there's SO many things I want to create.  I would like to get back into drawing, I want to learn how to knit, I want to remember how to use my camera on any setting other than auto.  I need to get back in my creative space.  There are so many things I've wanted to do for years and I haven't really had the time or energy with school.  Now is the time. 3. Go outside.  I want to go camping, I want to go hiking, swimming, biking!  Again, haven't had the time or energy. It's time. 4. Eat vegetables.  This is self-explanatory! 5.  Be present.  I'm often st...

I have not been taking care of myself food and exercise wise. I was doing pretty well and doing things in moderation but I've let it slide.  Maybe because it's cold and all I want is carbs, I dunno. I don't feel good physically.  My energy levels are low, my skin hasn't been great, my stomach is always queasy and I'm always bloated. Not good. Sometimes I feel like the more I tell myself I need to get it together, the harder it is to do so.  Then I eat my feelings.  I worry my behavior has gotten borderline disordered, but I'm trying to get it under control. I'm hoping that just putting my feelings into written word will help remind me of the regret and discomfort I've felt every time I start to binge again.

y'all it's done. IT'S SUBMITTED I AM ALMOST FREE.