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I have not been taking care of myself food and exercise wise.
I was doing pretty well and doing things in moderation but I've let it slide.  Maybe because it's cold and all I want is carbs, I dunno.
I don't feel good physically.  My energy levels are low, my skin hasn't been great, my stomach is always queasy and I'm always bloated.
Not good.
Sometimes I feel like the more I tell myself I need to get it together, the harder it is to do so.  Then I eat my feelings.  I worry my behavior has gotten borderline disordered, but I'm trying to get it under control.
I'm hoping that just putting my feelings into written word will help remind me of the regret and discomfort I've felt every time I start to binge again.

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