ugh.
What would make me happy right now? A new job. A purpose. A lack of anxiety. So many things. I feel lost. It's a new year. It feels wrong. Sometimes it feels like failure. I got this job I (kind of) wanted. I should've known better than to try out of desperation. But I guess part of me also thought maybe it would work out. Maybe it would be a new calling. Maybe it's because I went into knowing it wasn't the end goal? I don't know, but I need out.