things

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I have been in a not so great place mentally, as of late.
I think I have a tendency to shut myself off when something happens that I don't want to/can't deal with.
After we put Buffy to sleep in May, I just haven't been able to get back to normal.
I think the fact that I'm so fed up with my job and this area has contributed to the sadness I've felt.
Sometimes I don't/can't feel anything and that's almost worse, I think.
It was a mild summer so I should be grateful for that.
Fall is beginning and I should be grateful for that, too.
I have been doing a little bit of crafting, making some decor for the house and others who are interested.
here's a peek:
I have been trying to get excited for things to come but it comes and goes.
I bought tickets for Alex and me to see Placebo, my all time favorites.  I've been waiting for this since I was a teenager but it's hard for me to muster the excitement that I know should be there but isn't.
Halloween and my birthday are coming, and I'm trying to dig out some excitement for those as well, but it's been hard. 
I'm trying to focus on the small things to keep me going: the fact that fall is here, Alex, our cat, our home, the fact that we'll be moving away soon
I'm trying.

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