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I feel like I only come here when I'm down.
But usually happiness doesn't supply many eloquent thoughts? or some shit. I don't know.
I feel outside of my own skin again.  I gained some weight back and though it isn't that much, I still feel awful about it and I feel disgusting.
I feel as if this is my most stressful semester of school like...ever, and it's been impossible to find time to exercise, time to eat properly and cook healthy meals ( (I hate the word "meals," I have no idea why), much less log the calories I do consume.  I spend all of my time (trying to) sleep, doing school work, and working.  And I'm still broke anyway.
I was super excited about beginning the grad school process and the prospect of earning my bachelor's in May and now I'm just over it all.  I'm exhausted.
Even the things I enjoy seem like chores.
I know going to the gym would help in a plethora of ways but I can't seem to find the energy or time to do so.  Funny how it's hard to find the energy to do something that would give you energy...
I am so stressed about money and my car is leaking antifreeze and I don't know how much longer it will last.

worry worry worry.

I am grateful for being here, I guess.
Here are some recent photos
Halloween 2015: 
Birthday presents to myself: dress and new tattoo.

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