renew and refresh
I feel like I say this at the end of every year, but man, this year was rough.
I am so exhausted from having worked 7 days a week for like, 9 months.
I'm hoping this year will bring about some positive financial change. While I love working at the SPCA, it's just not fruitful and I am literally killing myself working nonstop. People need days off. Period.
There is so much I want to manifest this year. I know I constantly talk about wanting to get back into writing but it's just so damn hard. I don't let myself feel much and after years of repressing it all, it's hard to get back into a place where I take care of myself and my feelings and really FEEL. I don't know that I've ever really taken care of myself either, so in that aspect, I have to start from scratch.
Of course I have money goals, health goals, but I really need to focus on my emotional goals. I really need to get in and dig deep into what the hell I feel and be open to the idea of vulnerability.
I think a good way to start with that is just physical touch. I have forgotten what it's like to long for it and to be open to sharing it.
On a completely different note, I'd like to make the most of our time left in Richmond.
We have a goal to move to Alaska or Washington in fall 2021.
It's going to be difficult to find a balance between making sure I get to enjoy it here and also working enough to save. Especially considering I don't make enough to exist and that's why I must work 7 days a week to begin with!
we shall see.
I want to get more into my practice this year as well. I tend to feel more spiritual around the holidays but the idea is to practice all the time to heal oneself and feel connected to the earth. I spend so much fucking time on my computer looking at others' lives and daydreaming about my life looking like that someday but I'm 31. It's time to make my life like that myself.
Not to mention, my hands and wrists can't handle this 24/7 computer life anymore.
Every year I plan to make time for hobbies, and every year most of my time goes to this. Of course, it's difficult to have the energy for anything else when I work constantly but I just need to make time.
I'm sad the holidays are nearly over. The last few months have flown by so fast and I feel as if I didn't get to enjoy them much because of work.
I need to find a new source of income, this is just too much.
I am so exhausted from having worked 7 days a week for like, 9 months.
I'm hoping this year will bring about some positive financial change. While I love working at the SPCA, it's just not fruitful and I am literally killing myself working nonstop. People need days off. Period.
There is so much I want to manifest this year. I know I constantly talk about wanting to get back into writing but it's just so damn hard. I don't let myself feel much and after years of repressing it all, it's hard to get back into a place where I take care of myself and my feelings and really FEEL. I don't know that I've ever really taken care of myself either, so in that aspect, I have to start from scratch.
Of course I have money goals, health goals, but I really need to focus on my emotional goals. I really need to get in and dig deep into what the hell I feel and be open to the idea of vulnerability.
I think a good way to start with that is just physical touch. I have forgotten what it's like to long for it and to be open to sharing it.
On a completely different note, I'd like to make the most of our time left in Richmond.
We have a goal to move to Alaska or Washington in fall 2021.
It's going to be difficult to find a balance between making sure I get to enjoy it here and also working enough to save. Especially considering I don't make enough to exist and that's why I must work 7 days a week to begin with!
we shall see.
I want to get more into my practice this year as well. I tend to feel more spiritual around the holidays but the idea is to practice all the time to heal oneself and feel connected to the earth. I spend so much fucking time on my computer looking at others' lives and daydreaming about my life looking like that someday but I'm 31. It's time to make my life like that myself.
Not to mention, my hands and wrists can't handle this 24/7 computer life anymore.
Every year I plan to make time for hobbies, and every year most of my time goes to this. Of course, it's difficult to have the energy for anything else when I work constantly but I just need to make time.
I'm sad the holidays are nearly over. The last few months have flown by so fast and I feel as if I didn't get to enjoy them much because of work.
I need to find a new source of income, this is just too much.
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